Guess It's Time

I guess it's time to mention that I'm in training for the Cap City Half Marathon in May. I've been holding off because I wanted to be sure I could get past the first 10 miles. Even with writing this post, I'm not even sure I can do that. The longest I've ever run thus far is 7.2. 

I know my time wont be great but my GOAL in this race is not to race. It is to finish.

 I'm doing my training right now. I'm on week 10 and the mileage is starting to creep up there. With each added mile I start to see my nerves and Satan creep up as well. The weather in Ohio is crazy to say the least.  We could have sun, snow, sleet and rain followed by ice all in one day. When I started No Boundaries a few years ago-- I did it in the Winter. We ran in these conditions as well, but I can tell you I don't remember it being so cold. However, I've run in sleet, snow, slush and on ice. I've done it without complaint and without falling. Praise Jesus. The past few weeks I've run in 3*, 13*, 16* and this weekend 17*. The past four weeks have been running miserable. I've been blessed thus far that the windchill hasn't been gusting beyond 5.

But, with all the crappy weather I have mastered two 5 mile runs, one 6 and one 7. Yes,I did 7 stinken miles.  And each week I got a little better. 


5.34 mi Interval Training 1:29:31 843 kCal 16:45min/mi
6.22 mi Interval Training 1:30:38 1,124 kCal 14:34min/mi
7.0 mi Interval Training 1:40:06 1,357 kCal 14:18min/mi
 3.26 mi Interval Training 44:18 561 kCal 13:36 min/mi

You can see that my mileage per minute has come down. It's been awesome to see and feel. Am I slow? YES. But, I've not crapped out in the middle and I'm not out of breath. I can hold a conversation. 

I can also say, that because of my phone being so old I can only run one app at a time. So, I run the GPS app so that i know how far my runs have been. I can not listen to music at the same time so I've been doing all my running without music, except the runs that get done on the treadmill or the track. I can't imagine not listening to music while running but so far, I've had to do,what I have to do. I needed something that I could look back on and say," hey, I've done that".  

I'm scared to death. There, I admit it. Scared to death. I'm so afraid of hitting that wall that I hear so many people talk about. But, I'm training and I'm doing it right. I'm training with a local group called MIT. I have the support system of an army of 200+ members. Yes, I go out and run with 200 of my closest friends. I have a few coaches. I have a lot of friends and I have the support of my family. Who else is going to watch the kids while I get up every Saturday at 630 am to run? Not many!

So, to put a damper on my otherwise good weekend. I went to go get new workout clothes today: pants, shorts, shirts at Kohls today. I got the largest size and I still couldn't fit into them. Can someone please tell me what is the freaking point of losing weight, working out, getting fit-IF you can't even buy clothes after you lose 40 lbs??!! I'm at such a loss right now...and what did I do?? I emotionally ate. #FAIL